I know they always say that its easier to diet when you have a partner, or a community helping you out, but for me….that doesn’t really work.

Whenever I find myself following a “diet”, I get SO annoyed with people always bringing it up. People asking/stating things like “so how’s your diet going”, or “how much weight have you lost”, or “oh, right…you can’t have that because you’re on a diet“, drive me UP THE WALL!! It makes me want to punch them, and then stuff my face with a donut. I’m not exactly sure where this reaction comes from, but anyone have some incredible insights?? lol.

I wish there was a way for me to diet in secrecy. All of that added pressure makes me uncomfortable, and it’ll really provide me an excuse to quit it to get out of the spotlight. The only problem would be if I am invited out to eat somewhere that doesn’t have adequate options for me to eat and still follow my diet, or go to someone’s house if they’re making me lunch. I suppose I can decline the invitations, but I can’t stay at home all day! This is the biggest problem during the first phase of the SBD, where I’m not allowed to have carbs or fruit…its a little harder to work around (but not impossible!)

This isn’t as much a problem as it is a new challenge for me. Since I’m starting my SBD this weekend I’m going to try to keep it a secret, and see how it goes.

Its kind of the same way I think about exercising. While it may seem like fun to let everyone in on your plans and progress, the actual practice of that makes me uncomfortable. When I’m exercising in the neighborhood I don’t like anyone to know that I’m going, or much less see me working out. I’ve tried partnering with people, but it just makes me uncomfortable to workout with someone else. This is actually one of my goals for the future…I want to be able to get into shape enough so that I’m not completely embarrassed to go for a run with my boyfriend. Right now my run wouldn’t be much of a run…I jog for 50 seconds, and spend the next 6 minutes catching my breath again, lol. (With my ultra-modified version of the Couch-to-5k, I hope this will be possible by the end of the summer).

Anyway, I just needed to let off a little steam before going to bed. I’m waking up early tomorrow (early for me is at 9am), and I hope to head out for my walk before 10am to avoid as much heat as possible. If I can wake up earlier it’d be even better (because I’d be back for my Saturday morning cartoons!! I’m not kidding…I really watch them…lol).