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Archive for December 2009

It’s been over a week since I picked up the Beck Diet plan. I must admit I haven’t followed it 100%, but already it’s made a difference.

The most progress I’ve made is with my stress and emotional eating. Every time I find myself instinctively looking for a snack or craving food I’ve been able to stop myself and figure out if I’m really hungry. Usually I’m not. I’ve also stopped being a serial “chewer”. I realize this is just a matter of deciding you’re going to discipline yourself….and anyone can do it even if you don’t have the book, but I’m glad I found the book. I realize I’m not crazy for needing to be chewing on something….I just need to get it under control.

The two parts I’ve done terribly on is planning my meals (therefore I can’t say I’ve been “following” my meal plans) and eating slowly. For the most part I’ve been eating sitting down, but I’ve slipped on a few occasions. It’s still REALLY hard for me to remember to eat slowly. I’m eating slower, that’s for sure, but it’s not saying much because I’m sure it’s still faster than “normal”. (One highlight was when I realized I ate three slices of pizza in the same time my BF ate 4! We usually eat at the same pace, so that’s a big thing!)

I’ve done a decent job of resisting “unplanned foods”. Again, that’s a bit of a challenge due to my lack of planning to begin with, but one big example is that I had a pan full of ginger chewy cookies sitting on my counter for a few days. I didn’t touch them until the BF came over, and even then I just had two. And I sat and ate them slowly. I’ve also had a loaf of pumpkin bread sitting in my fridge since Saturday. Do you think I’ve touched it? NO, I haven’t!! I had once slice when I made it, and then half a slice one morning for breakfast (and that was only because the slice fell out when I was putting it in the fridge.) Finally, I went to a brunch last Saturday, and while there was tons of food for me to have 2nds and 3rd with, I served myself one smallish plate and didn’t have any more than that. Small victories, but I’ll take them.

While I haven’t officially started with their eating plan, I did read the Stage 2 information. I really like how they have it set up. Once you learn the formula it’s not too hard to find things to eat. My only complaints: it’s very calorie centered, and that’s just something I’m not used to doing; and there are so many combinations possible….I’ve been a bit too overwhelmed to start. I need to sit down with a notebook and figure out different meal options, as well as stock my fridge with vegetables and fruits that I can easily add to a meal and complete it.

I’m pretty excited about it, even if I’ve strayed away from filling out the sheets every night. It’s mostly due to a lack of preparation and I just haven’t given it that level of attention it needs. Even so, I’m going to keep at it until this becomes natural to me!

I woke up at 5am to work out. That’s what.

Let me back up a bit first…..you see, earlier this week I got it into my head that I was ready to start P90X. I’d watched a few of them, and they looked manageable. I think most are close to an hour long, so it isn’t as outrageous as I was convincing myself.

I didn’t have a chance to workout on Monday (I went over to my sister’s house to hang out), then on Tuesday I was finally able to do the first workout. Core Synergystics. It wasn’t horribly difficult! (Just plain difficult, lol) There were several moves I wimped out on, and at least one I couldn’t do at all (just a few wimpy attempts….that would be the Dreya roll), but I got through it without dying! Like most workouts, I think my first one was more of a trial run. I should be working on that video again next week, so I hope it goes better then! I didn’t feel it that day, nor the next morning (only a little in my upper body), but by the evening I could feel it when I stretched my abs or legs. Mmmm….I love that feeling!

Yesterday I didn’t have a chance to workout again since I had to do a Costco run with my mom, in preparation for the Cookie party this weekend. I really wanted to, but I just didn’t want to finish my workout after 9pm. It’s a good thing I didn’t either….I went to my BF’s house around 8, I was a bit hungry so he made me some chicken, but halfway through I felt so crappy I couldn’t finish eating. I got home at 9:40, and was in bed by 10. I was exhausted.

HOWEVER, I knew I didn’t want to wait a whole other day before working out. I knew I wouldn’t be able to work tonight, because my aunt had invited us over to her house after work to celebrate their anniversary. SO, my only option was a morning workout. I woke up at 5am, only pressed snooze once (small victories!), then got dressed and did my workout! Today was “Cardio X”, and it wasn’t as bad as I was expecting! Again, there were many moves I couldn’t do the full reps for, I had to take a couple of breaks and I think it’s partly due to not having eaten enough the night before, but I got through it. (And that damned “Dreya Roll”….grr….)

The next workout is supposed to be Shoulders and Arms, followed by Ab Ripper. Being realistic, I don’t think I’ll be able to do both tonight, so I’m thinking I’ll squeeze in the abs (it’s about 15 minutes or so) if I’m not too stuffed (which I shouldn’t be….since I’m eating “mindfully” and won’t overindulge), and follow that by shoulders and arms in the morning. If I choose to do that, I can’t snooze at all because it’s over an hour, and I have to be at work early ontime tomorrow!

We’ll see. I’m feeling pretty good about this, and I’m hoping I can keep it up!

By the way, I weighed myself after the workout since I forgot to do so before, and I’m down to 161.0 from 163.0 last week! And that’s after having drunk a couple cups of water. I’m sure I sweat a bit, but I’m positive I didn’t sweat several cups worth. lol.

I debated whether or not I should continue posting these weekly recaps, afterall, I’ll no longer be working out every day. After a couple days though, I realized why not? It’d still be a good idea to track my physical activity, even if it’s just so I don’t lie to myself later on.

Monday, November 30
Remember how I said I was just going to stretch on Monday? Well, I don’t know what got into me, but when I got home I felt like doing the 30 Day Shred! Go me! Of course, I was beat afterwards, and I did some major wimping out. (Particularly with the pushups and random lunges here and there.)

Tuesday, December 1
On Tuesday I was still feeling the shredding, so I did some stretching. It always feels so great! My favorites: the glute stretch and plough. The best part is that I’ve noticed my legs becoming slightly more flexible! When I stretch my hamstrings I can completely grab my foot, whereas when I started the stretching I could just barely grip my toes. I love it when I can see and feel the progress!

Wednesday, December 2
My sister invited us over to her house again, and while I had all the intentions of doing the 30 Day Shred when I got home, I realized I didn’t have enough time to workout and arrive at a decent time. A bit of a bummer, but oh well.

Thursday, December 3
Once again, I gave the 30 Day Shred a try. A few observations: definitely felt better through the cardio, I didn’t feel like wimping out as much at times (although that doesn’t mean I didn’t wimp out a few times), and my arms are really weak, lol.

For the record, I’m stuck right now doing “girly pushups” (you know, using your knees). I’ve tried real pushups, but I’m just no good. So this time when it was time for pushups, instead of furiously trying to do as many half-assed pushups as I can, I decided to do steady and deep (girly) pushups. I probably did a few less than the video, but I think I’ll get more from it this way.

Another trouble spot is the side lunges with lateral raises. I use 5 pound weights for all the other exercises, but for this one I can’t handle the 5 weights, so I’ve been doing them without weights. It makes it much more manageable, and I’ve kept my form better throughout the lunges. Even so, I feel like a weak cheat. So last night I tried using one 5-lb weight for both hands. It still sucked! It felt like I was lifting a 10-pound weight, and I barely got through 10!!! Needless to say, I’m going to have to keep working on this.

Friday, December 4
I could be wrong (my fault for waiting too long to write these recaps), but on Friday I believe I gave myself the day off. Actually, I’m pretty sure I took the day off since I remember that I got moody on Friday night and watched Mad Men for a few hours.

Saturday, December 5
On Saturday I woke up with the intention of working out first thing. Well, that didn’t happen. I finished Season 2 (?) of Mad Men on DVD. The good news is that I did the 30 Day Shred again a few hours after that! The bad news, I must not be eating right because I was seriously wiped out and performed worse than I did on Thursday. I need to start paying more attention to my nutrition! Pushups are starting to feel easier now though…(only slightly).

Sunday, December 6
Sunday was my dad’s birthday, so I contented myself with just going to dance class. Which isn’t a bad thing….it was quite the workout!

So many exciting things happened this weekend. Some good, some not-so-good….some have me in conflict. Either way, there was one highlight I’m excited to share!

Late last week Jen (Prior Fat Girl) asked if her readers wanted to read a book with her….the “Beck Diet for Life”. Normally I’m wary of any diet book that claims it’s “for life” (it’s GOT to be a marketing scheme, right?!) , but when she wrote some highlights the book claimed I was intrigued. It claimed that you will “ learn to think differently and overcome dieting pitfalls and sabotaging thoughts. Feel control in the most challenging situations – no matter what. Remain motivated to maintain weight loss for life”. My biggest problem is emotional eating, and sabotaging thoughts, so I thought this would be great for me.

So Saturday morning I head over to the library with my checkbook, paid my fines ($26, holy crap!) and then it occurred to me to see if they had the book. THEY DID! Two copies, at that! So I grabbed it and ran. (Not without legally checking it out though.)

I got home, and later that night started reading. And kept reading. And then read some more. I was hooked.

Now, they don’t lie when they say you need to commit yourself to doing what they say. Lots of the things seem a little cheesy to me, and I admit I must look like a pathetic loonie to others, but I need for this to work!

I’m going to go off on a tangent now, but I casually mentioned to the BF I was going to put myself through some Cognitive Therapy to get over my eating problems. (I didn’t want to tell him “I’m following the Beck Diet”, and cognitive therapy is pretty much the strategy they use to get you to control your habits as part of the plan.) His reaction really hurt me….he started lecturing about all I need to do is stop eating crap and eat healthy. Now, I’m pretty sure he didn’t mean any harm, but it’s so hard for me to talk about my stress eating and binging and whatnot to begin with….when he lashed out like that it made me feel like crap. Like I’m weak and useless for having these issues to begin with. I’m not an idiot, I know that if I just replaced the cheetos I keep binging on with carrots it wouldn’t be such a big deal. However, it doesn’t take away the fact that I need to comfort myself with food. Even if it’s not junk food I’m eating, I don’t want to have that issue. Lately I’ve been chewing through packs of gum as if I was a chain smoker (I’ve become a “chain chewer” again.) Sure, there’s less than 5 calories per piece, but a normal person wouldn’t have that urge, and THAT is what I need to fix.

(Now, if I could only relate that back to him without getting emotional and/or defensive.)

Oh, another tangent now. One of the things you have to do is weigh yourself every day, and only ONCE a day (it’s just a number!). So, I went to my parents house and picked up the scale. When I got home I stepped on, and got a REALLY bad wake-up call. I weighed in at 166 pounds. I hadn’t weighed that much since early 2008!!! Keep in mind I was weighing 157 when I moved back in August, and that was high. Ugh. I actually weighed myself the next day and it was down to 163.5, but still…..the “damage” had been done. (I’m not sure why I was so surprised…..my jeans haven’t been zipping, and I definitely look rounder.)

So yes, the Beck Diet…..right now I’m in Stage 1, which basically is just concentrating on monitoring your urges and whatnot. (I’m really over-simplifying this.) Already I’ve noticed a difference, I’ve even slipped up, but it’s ok. I deserve credit for taking the initiative and doing this on my own! (One of the tasks is to “give yourself credit”, hehe.) It’ll be at least a week before I move onto managing what I actually eat, but I’d say my hands are full at the moment.

I’ll probably be going into more detail as time goes on, but I thought I’d share the news!